These two crazy kids....
got a marriage license...
walked down an aisle...
... and GOT MARRIED.
In some ways, I feel like we just got married yesterday. Then, there is another part of me that can't even remember what it was like to be single.
I can't really sum up our first year in one word. Wonderful? yes. Hard? yes, that too. Truthfully, it was one of the hardest years of my life. Not because our marriage is difficult, or bad or any of that. But the adjustments have been such a challenge. We didn't live together before we got married. We didn't even live in the same state! Or time zone, for that matter. So, there was a lot of "getting to know you" and figuring out each others' expectations.
Then, there's the whole disability thing. Michael is used to living with his disability. I was not. I should say "am not," because there is so much of me that is still adjusting. It has been way harder than I ever imagined. It's torture to see someone you love so much struggle and be vulnerable. I would fix it all in a second, if I could. Just like he would fix anything he could to make my life easier.
But, you know what? This is us. All of this. Michael wouldn't be the person he is today if he weren't in that wheelchair. And as much as I hate handicapped parking spots, and making sure elevators work, and having to help with the not-so-glamorous stuff, this is our life. And it is uniquely ours.
I was so ready to start this 2nd year. I spent too much time that first year letting my heart be broken by all of the challenges and being jealous of having to come in second to the "third person" in our marriage. Way too many tears and tantrums.
This next year, and hopefully each one following I hope to rise above all of that, lean into God's strength that He promises when we're weak, and embrace this life that is uniquely ours, and all it has to offer.
Because there are so many treasures. So many inside jokes, and laughs and joys. "Love Like This" is hard, but it's so worth it.