Good morning from the O’Callaghan Hotel in downtown Annapolis, MD.
I woke up early this morning.
And I made coffee.
And now I’ve propped myself up in the bed, and I’m drinking my coffee at my own pace.
I’m not taking anyone outside, or feeding anyone, or doing anyone’s laundry, or getting anyone’s pills or getting anyone else up and dressed.
I poured my own coffee.
And here, I am.
Taking it all in.
This, is awesome.
I know there are people who don’t understand this.
That I need to get away.
They think something is wrong with our marriage, or that I’m selfish, or extreme, or they say they could never do that.
I wish I was more like my husband (in many ways, not just this one!), because he told me, “Who cares what people think? You know what you need.”
Or in the brilliant words of Bristol Palin, “The haters are going to hate.”
So, I guess you can hate all you want.
I came here with my husband’s blessing.
I think his words as I left yesterday morning were, “Don’t hurry back.”
He hung out with a friend last night.
A good friend who helped him get into the bed.
His home health aide will be there to get him up this morning.
I’ll be home this afternoon.
Just because I take a break for myself does not mean I am a horrible wife. It doesn’t mean I don’t love my husband. It doesn’t mean I am a bad, selfish caregiver.
Exactly the opposite, actually.
For the last week, I have been a crabby, impatient, easily annoyed you-know-what. Especially to my husband. Bless HIS heart!
I was burned out, stressed out, and exhausted.
I needed a break.
So, here I am, on my break.
About an hour from home.
But, it’s perfect, because it feels hundreds of miles away from my routine and my responsibilities and the many stresses and demands of my life at work and at home.
I need this space to clear my mind.
I need this space to exhale, to feel, and to seek the Lord.
So, don’t hate.